Isn’t it crazy how our dogs not only have the power to lift us up, but also have the ability to bring us tumbling down? Some days they make us happier, kinder people. And others they have us snapping at our spouses. They keep us humble, that’s for sure.
Despite the rough beginning, the rest of our weekend went pretty well. If I believed she was capable, it’s almost as if Shiva sensed my disappointment and decided to be on her best behaviour. Whatever the reason, I am grateful. I don’t think I would have handled a second meltdown very well.
As predicted, I am feeling better about things today. However, I don’t think I can proceed as if nothing happened. That’s the thing about being a silly human, we don’t forget things that bother us. Shiva and Mia were probably over it as soon as their teeth were put away. I would love to have that ability. To forgive and forget without a second thought. I’m working on it.
Thanks to all for your suggestions and support. Knowing that I am not alone in feeling so down because my dog isn’t as perfect as I’d like… It helps a lot. Most people would just think I am nuts. I don’t know when all this agility training became so important to me. All of a sudden it just is. It’s no longer just about having a good time. I feel now like I have something to prove. Perhaps that’s where we’ve gone wrong. No dog is perfect, of course. Just as no human is. That last point is the most vital to note. I am of the belief that a dog’s actions are never her fault. if a dog screws up, it’s because a human has somewhere else down the line. If Shiva blows me off to tick off another dog, it’s my fault. I am the only one to blame. It’s difficult for me not to take that to heart.
Anyway, I guess I know what I need to work on. Recalls, recalls, recalls. As if this wasn’t totally obvious before! I am lucky enough to have a free spot in Susan Garret’s next online Recallers Course. I fully intend to take it all much more seriously this time. It seems to be the one thing standing in our way. If Shiva and I can just conquer this running off thing, if we can just convince her that it is more fun to stay with us, then I know everything else will immediately improve.
Maybe not everything else. She still lacks all social skills. That comes with time, though, right? Right?