I’ve never blogged anonymously. From the beginning I used my real name and never hesitated to give out information that would make my identity obvious. Despite the fact that I am a very private person, I’ve really done nothing to hide some pretty personal thoughts from the world. Yet it always surprises me when someone I know offline stumbles upon my website. Looking back on it, I probably should be been a bit more careful. It just never occurred to me that anyone would ever, a: care enough to pay attention, or b: actually be interested once they found it.
This reticence to tell anyone isn’t born from any efforts to be secretive, exactly. It’s hardly a secret life when I’ve never made any effort to hide anything. But in a way I guess it kind of became a secret over time by simply not talking about it. Heck, even though my PH was the one who suggested I start, I barely talk about any of it with him. To others, my silence appears odd. Unfortunately, to be otherwise makes me uncomfortable.
After almost three years, talking about blogging with others in public still makes me feel awkward. My experiences at BarkWorld were almost surreal. Before the conference I don’t know how many times I even used the word “blog” out loud. I’ve never thought of myself as a “blogger” either, more just as a person who posts pictures of her dog on the Internet.
However, if there was one thing I learned at the event, it was that pet blogging is not any sillier than any other form of writing. There is nothing ridiculous or dorky about sharing my experiences with animals. Or so they tell me.It’s part of my brain chemistry I think that when it comes to others I have no problem seeing the value in their activities, no matter how different. But there is a disconnect when it comes to how I talk to myself. Other pet bloggers are real and important and insightful. I am just fooling around.
Maybe it’s this self-esteem issue that holds me back, prevents me from sharing my blog with others offline, including my own parents. I don’t know if I worry about being judged or if I just worry my writing will be forced to change in tone once my mom is aware of this space. It’s just easier to keep it to myself.
Do you blog anonymously? Do you tell everyone in your life about your website? How have you handled being “outed”?