It hurts; oh, it hurts! But I have to be honest. For a moment, I did think about faking it. There was the slight chance for me to throw something together over the weekend and pretend as if I had worked hard all month. As hard as many of you. It would have been a sorry lie. It probably would have caused me to lose even more sleep. So! I am going to tell the truth – as humiliating as it is.
Remember all those challenging challenges I signed up for? I haven’t finished them. I’ve barely started. As my grandfather would say… DOING!
There are no excuses. None of value anyway. I just didn’t do them. I didn’t run for thirty minutes every day. I didn’t complete any of the great trick ideas I had for Shiva. The entire month of January was one unmitigated disaster. It was not at all what I had planned.
In order to prevent 2013 from being forever named the “Year of Shittery” (oh, how I am tempted to write off the next eleven months…) I am throwing back my shoulders, slipping on my big girl shoes and forcing myself to look at it all in a positive way. No, things didn’t go as I’d hoped. That doesn’t mean it was a complete waste. Failure happens. It’s what one learns from failure that matters most.
And I learned!
1. Running in snow boots isn’t as hard as you’d think.
2. Shiva will always push her boundaries. If I give her an inch, she will take the dang province. I can’t let my criteria slip for a second.
3. It is possible to spend too much time watching goat videos.
4. If the only thing I accomplish each day is waking up and walking my dog, I can consider it a success.
5. Wallowing only leads to more wallowing.
6. Avoidance of things I dislike is one of my biggest motivators – à la Something Wagging This Way Comes. Really I should have figured this out long ago.
7. As long as I can go home, everything will be okay in the end.
8. You are all awesome. But I guess I knew that already.
Even though I don’t deserve it, I am giving myself a do-over. February can – and will – be better. I can – and will – achieve my goals. I’ve kicked serious butt at similar challenges in the past and I can do it again! I am kicking out my inner wallower and I am going to give it an honest try this time. To keep myself accountable, every time I write a post I am going to share both my running progress and my dog training progress. Each day I have to do a little of both. Hopefully within the next thirty days I will be feeling better about my accomplishments. From here on out I am officially changing my attitude!
Keep calm and give Shiva a cookie, that’s my new motto.